Updates…

I barely have time to blog nowadays. And I do not know why… I am just too tired.

Daily schedule seems fine, but it is the fact that when I reach home, I unpack/laundry/pack for next day/internet/Billy-time… it is already midnight and I cannot even think of starting my computer to blog. Though I miss it. I find that it makes me express more from a busy day or just to get some stuff off my chest.

Like TODAY!

I have so much to say, but not gonna say it all. Just whatever that comes to my mind.

I am starting to get used to work. The little little tiny details that need attention and also starting to think bigger. Not just on the surface, but dig deeper and see future results. It is not an easy task. Sometimes I feel that I am too new and very blur/unsure on a lot of things. Expectations that I cannot meet and it scares me how fast the bus is running.

I’m like a raw piece of meat!

Having said that, I am glad I went through it. Experience is the best teacher. Just like BC49 track 2 says “What doesn’t kill me only will make me stronger”. So whatever that I’ve been through, good or bad, will make me stronger. A lot of positiveness needed here.

What I have learnt is to prioritize. Some things are like lucky draw prizes. I WANT ALL OF THEM!

We need to set our priorities right. Some things might be attractive but doesn’t necessarily be good for us to take. My family comes first. I want to make that a point. I am still learning the “how-to’s” and growing to be a more matured person. So… it will all fall into place, with God’s grace and guidance.

Speaking of which – I CANNOT STAND PEOPLE WHO DISRESPECTS.

Alright, there are many situations of disrespecting someone. I seldom feel disrespected and I don’t think that it should be something so hard to practice. It should be a natural process and a habit we all do in our daily lives. Today, I felt disrespected.

I disliked the way that person replied to my question. And I disliked the way that person looked at me. And I also dislike that person’s attitude. I did not ask a stupid question. I asked because I was concerned and I was given the instruction to do something for that person, and this is what I get? Yes, it may be a personal preference thing, but it doesn’t take a genius to realize that you are such an egoistic person and the way you talk, puts people off and it doesn’t matter if you are good at what you do.

For example, you might be a SUPERHERO, but if your attitude sucks… sorry, I am not buying it. You can fool the world but someday, it will come back to you. I tried to overlook it and just let it go. But whenever I see you, it goes back to square one. Right now, all I can say is: Whatever, don’t matter. I practice integrity. It is just sad that you don’t.

Right. Now that is OFF my chest!

I know I’m being a little random on this post. 

I am gonna have a good sleep tonight 🙂 Coz I had a great EASYSTEP class and sweated a bucket! No joke! It is only my 3rd solo class and I am glad it turned out good. More great things coming in line this week! Stay positive…

Where do you stand?

Some people just talk too much. Or play too much.

Believe it or not, I used to be one too. 

I don’t know if I have stopped, but I am still learning. It is not just something to learn overnight. It could take a lifetime and sometimes you only realize it after you’ve done it. I’m not saying that I am perfect but we all have our ups and downs.

Well, for me, it is a constant reminder to have humility and be humble. It could be the worst thing to do when people are just talking and not listening. Have you ever thought, how does a leader be a leader? I’ve always believed that if you want to lead something, you must be able to “be lead” before. Just like I mentioned on Facebook before, that in order to teach others, you gotta be teachable first.

Sadly, some people are very judgmental. They judge you through your looks, behavior, and worse, your age. We can never stop them from doing that, coz it is the “nature” of being human. But do we really need to prove ourselves? Na’ah… I don’t think so. I’ve heard this saying from somebody. She said “you do not need to explain/prove whatsoever if a person decides not want to listen or just want to go their own way”. As long as you know what you are doing, that’s fine. In time, the results will prove it. When we try to explain, we end up feeling like this…

Being overwhelmed by too many things!

Everyone’s gotta start somewhere, no? I just wonder, what happen to humility and understanding? When people meet, where is the respect for one another? There is a time for everything. A season for everything. But when it’s time to stop, just stop. Time to shut up… just shut up. I seriously don’t care about the experiences or what was done before, but now is NOW. Things change. Don’t you think it’s like a barking dog to the ear?

Anyhow… respect gotta be earned. Have you ever felt like this : Just when you start to respect a person or thought they deserve to be respected, the moment when they can’t be serious, keep going on and on, you just lose respect for them?

I’ve had this. All respect has gone down the drain. Why? Coz when I don’t feel respected, you will not gain my respect either. And once it is done, it’s very VERY hard to regain it. Just like trust… takes a long time to build but once broken… it’s back to square one. This may also lead harassment. When they can’t control what they say or do.

I have to admit, I can’t stand it. I am a pretty protective person. I am protective over the people I care about. If respect is not given to the person I care, you lose my respect too.

You can say I am being a little too sensitive about it or too emotional. Maybe… I’m not denying it. But I really believe in respect and integrity. Respect first and you will gain respect. It takes time, it takes effort.

Regardless of your age or experience or status, respect is needed in a community. Once we’ve mastered it, I bet it could be a much better place to be. I found this while searching in Google about respect. In the nature form or Martial Arts, it is all about respect too.

It is almost 2AM now… and I just needed to get it off my chest. Sleep well and think about how wonderful would it be if respect was part of our lives!

 

 

 

 

Good student?

That is one question I ask myself when I’m at my Monday lectures… it is always, most of the time, ok fine! Sometimes… boring! Hahaha…

The subject changes every 3 weeks and an assignment as well. So far this year we had  assignments and I’ve yet to hand in any of it! It’s already end on June. But today… today…. I DID IT! I handed in one of them 🙂 that’s coz I had plenty of time to actually sit and do it. It felt so good that I finished and it drives me to become a better student.

I am on MC this 2 days (Mon& Tues) and it is given by the hospital. MCKL cannot deny me of this! Having said that, I still went to office today. Mainly coz I need to return the bags and stuff I took to Ipoh for a fair on Saturday. The other half day, went to TDMC to get my x-ray report and then went home to rest.

Tomorrow, still ON MC. But I’m gonna go onto office for the first half of the day again. Just to clear my things and say good-bye to my current colleagues. I will miss some of them 😦 but we all will move on. This place is not for me. I felt such a heavy burden lifted off my shoulders 🙂 After a long time of contemplation, I’m glad that I’ve made this decision. The great thing of it all moving so quickly, is because God is in it! Thank you Jesus!

 

Beautiful Wednesday

Today was my 2nd last day of going for school education fairs. SMK Kepong Baru. I was so tired since the morning. Probably coz I did not get enough sleep as well… my body was feeling so lethargic and I really felt like sleeping. Just… let… me… sleep… ZZzzZZzzz…

This was exactly what I felt like doing… but of course not. So I dreadfully held on from 2pm to 5pm. Made myself walk around the college… breathe and stay awake. Left office at 5.15 pm and there was a but of traffic on the highway… luckily I didn’t fell asleep while driving but I could. I know I could!

Reached TCV for RPM and voila! Adrenaline rush… It is true that somehow, when you start to exercise, after a tired day from work, you will suddenly have that boost and energy. Of course it might not happen if you are sick or just too tired from doing anything. So yeap, I enjoyed the class but oh boy… my chest! Blame BODYPUMP! I took my regular weights yesterday and felt the soreness. Especially on the chest.

Oh don’t get me wrong… I complain but I enjoy the pain. Coz it tells me that I’ve worked hard. Haha! I find it hard to grip the bike at RPM coz I can’t close my chest… stretching it felt better but it was so sore…@.@

After that I TT Lose It! with Ben and it was so good to see so many members in the class. I’ve still a lot to learn… much to study and much to improve on. Nevertheless, glad that the members got what they need and seeing them work hard is such an inspiration and it reminded me of what I used to do last time when I was obese. Yes… I weighed 89 KILOS!

Tomorrow is gonna be a BODYCOMBAT marathon for me. Call me crazy but I am looking forward to it! BC 48 is here to stay and burn!!! I wonder how many kCal per class as instructors. Anyone knows for sure? I believe it is more than running on the treadmill itself!

I know it contrasts to what I’ve said earlier. About being so tired and stuff. But when it comes to teaching? I love every moment of it! I wanna push myself harder on stage. Burn those calories and get fitter and stronger. I will have my recovery 🙂 2 days off gym after that. Reason 1: I am attending my former school’s band concert. Reason 2: I will be “WORKING” on Saturday. Travelling down to Wesley Methodist School, Ipoh. Go and come back in 1 day… *sigh* maybe it isn’t that bad I hope. Luckily I have Benni going with me. Thank you BenniBoo! :-*

So… speaking of working harder in the gym… I need to see the scale going down! HELP!

Get fitter guys… for health and for your family. Just spend 1 hour to exercise, could give you few years of life. Life’s a great journey, live it!